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Almost Freezing My Eggs: The Prequel (LONG VERSION)

[Disclaimer, this is so freaking long.] Part 1:  The start of my infertility journey actually started before I knew I was infertile. I was 35, in a serious relationship with B but not married or engaged, and I was afraid that my ever-growing age (as age tends to do) was going to be a barrier for me getting pregnant in the future. I made an appointment at a fertility clinic in March 2022 to discuss freezing my eggs. Sometimes a girl's just gotta take matter into her own hands, ya know!? At that time, I underwent some baseline fertility tests (AFC, AMH, FSH, vitamin D, and a handful of other labs). B and I met with a doctor who told us that it would be better to freeze embryos, rather than just my eggs because embryos survive the thaw at better rates. But before we could do anything, she said, we needed to get my vitamin D level up. I was at a 16 and they want 30+ before moving forward with any treatment. She told me to start taking a vitamin D supplement and re-check in 60 days. Of ...
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Infertility Mixed Tape

[To be continued...] For Crying: In the Waiting by Kina Grannis Mother by Brandi Carlisle The Prophecy by Taylor Swift PROTECTOR by Beyoncé Nick of Time by Bonnie Raitt Bigger Than the Whole Sky by Taylor Swift For Raging: I Can Do It With a Broken Heart by Taylor Swift BREAK MY SOUL by Beyoncé I AM WOMAN by Emmu Meli
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Worth a Shot

*Clears throat* *Taps on the mic* *"Is this thing on?"* Today is Sunday, June 2nd, 2024. I'm looking out of my office window on a beautiful morning in Denver. It's 75 degrees out, the sky is blue and the tree branches that brush against the glass of the window are green. I'm feeling in this moment a sense of peace and gratitude and - most surprising to myself - some hope.  I've been undergoing infertility tests, procedures, appointments, and treatments since the end of  November, when I looked out this same window and saw bare trees, with leaves gone and Christmas lights strung on roofs. It's been six months since the start and so much has changed - outside this office window and inside of me.  I'm not writing today to document the end of this journey; I am still very much on it. In fact, I had a lab and ultrasound appointment early this morning. I'm writing today because on my way home from that appointment, I had a flicker of... inspiration? I gu...
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